I know this blog has just played its role as a emotional trash bin when I get so fed up with life and just couldn't take it any longer... and once again, here I am unloading the emotional baggage I carry inside.

In just two days, I realized something truthful about life in general. There are true unconditional friends and there are selfish conditional ones. I just found out that one of the dear friends I considered was the selfish one.

It was the week of one of my other friend's birthday that this selfish-was-a-friend-of-mine person started to act weird. The group agreed to give the birthday girl a surprise... apparently this other person started to post some emotional rants in facebook... thoughts like how could one plan something that has not been done to her and things like that. I ignored this idea thinking that she wouldn't be that shallow to have a heavy heart over not having a surprise birthday gift for her on her birthday... then 2 weeks passed hoping that things would heal and that she'd come back to her senses, she blows this " I wouldn't care anymore cause I know you guys won't listen. haha"... and this came out of nowhere! we could not even identify as to why she would post something like this? I was even calm as to offering her a venue to tell us why the sudden post and why the sudden rants in Facebook status. I know for myself I tried to reach out to her, hoping that shed give us the slightest explanation of the root cause of all these "kasuko" she has towards us...

It breaks my heart with her words saying just consider it as if I am far away na dugay pako mubalik or never na jud sa inyo.. It angers me so much as to why she couldn't give us a logical and precise reason why and not the cliches she's been telling us. We are already what? 20?21? and here she is... acting like a highschool student refusing to offer any form of explanation or facing us for that matter. It hurts so much how a person you consider a good friend can walk away just like that because of some reasons she does not want to reveal! who's being unfair now? i know that this experience is oh so overwhelming to all of us barkadas and the emotions are just raging in extremities but to me, my heart bleeds more to the person who started these all. A simple text telling us that she needs a friend or a wall post or even a call for a dinner just to catch up was all she needed to do and these things wouldn't have had to happen.

To you: How could you just trash us like dresses you have out grown? We were true to you, I for one considered you as one of my closest among the group... but you broke my heart into pieces for acting so selfish and inconsiderate.

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and here's this other thing too.... I just feel so frustrated over this Manila trip with my kkp friends... We booked a flight to Manila as early as June because we availed of the 1pesos fair promo CebuPac had and here they are... busy with work and other things AND THEY ALL CAN'T Go! Arrrggghhh.. I just wish the group I booked this flight were my cousins... Samuk jud kaayo. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it! I have been longing for this trip and been day dreaming for the happy memories we as a group could make, but ugh! FRUSTRATING.
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