i dedicate this video to all my high school classmates. thank you for the wonderful memories worth to cherish. i can't believe it was a year ago already... but still, fresh are the momories. i love you and thank you.

(this will be my new video soon. and hmmm.. i guess yesterday wasn't my day yet. i'm still alive. hehe. :P whomever you are visiting my blog. thank you. c",})

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OMG!!!! i just had the traumatic experience ever in my whole life inside the movie house!! shucks memeng!!! piskot jud! never na jud ko magwatch ever ug movie alone. man! i learned the lesson the hard way with first hand experience. shheeeesssh!!

well, ganina... just few hours ago, me and my friends watched "night at the museum." (it's a nice movie. very hilarious) anyway, so there ni sulod na mi sa movie house and ako ang pinakagilid. and there were empty seats before me coz' we situated ourselves really in the middle. and then there was this fat guy who made abay to me. at first, he was seated a chair away, then few minutes, he transfered now seating right next to me. I was leaning sa atong chair niya, then ni transfer ko ug paglean sa chair ni hugm8. Then moments later, I noticed that he was staring at me and making "ahem, ahem!" sound effects. I didn't mind him yet. Then later on, I noticed his hands moving up and down positioned and the very core of his being. (i wasn't staring at it, ok?) You know, doing the masturbation thingy. xiet!!! i was panicing already. Then he was staring at me every now and then. then making the sound effects once more with matching moving of the hands. my ghad!!! grabeh na jud akong ka kulba. pero ni quiet lang ko kei ana ko na mu stop ra lageh to xa.. i just have to ignore him. but no! ala siya ni stop! he still moved on.. so i texted my blockmate, the one right beside me coz i don't want him to notice i already noticed whatever he was doing (coz i acted as if nothing is happening) coz he might do something really bad. And heck naman... si nadine, naa pa jud ka text na dili gakasend ang mesage kei busy keow ga watch so dili pa niya ma read ang up-coming mesage na akong gi text. errr.. i was making kuhit na her and still she didn't understand it. there, she was able to read it. then follow-up message she got from me. "nads, gawas sah tah.. buy tah ug something." naman.. wa jud siya kasabot unsa jud akong gi mean. iya ba kahang gi reply kei.. "ayaw. basin maka miss tah ug chada na scene." errrrr... super errr keow! as in akong heart, ga lupad na sa kakulbah! wa pa japun xa ka g na gi ignan na nako xa na maniac akong na kaabay. Then finally, ka g na siya. Wa japun effect akong pagpretend2x kei gi verbal man jud niya na "tah! balhin tah." aguy! akong heart wa na! ni lagput na jud. so wala na jud koy choice kei murag ka gets na jud ang guy so nitindog ko. na shock ang blockmate nako on the other end ngano nag stand ko... ana ko, balhin tah. So we transfered and nag patunga jud ko sa ila. Then there... I explained to them why. And here comes nadine telling me "ay, hugm8! sorry jud ayo. i thought you were just pinching me softly coz you normally do that biya diba? so i didn't mind." naman nads!!!! My gosh! in.ana ka effective ang akong pagpretend na maski akong blockmate na ilad!! pero deep inside, super grabeh to the maxx na akong ka kulbah! the moment we tranfered, the guy also transfered somewhere else.. then moments later, we saw him seating few rows away from us. xiet! pero we didn't mind. then after the movie... we went out na. mashock!! kalit lang siya ni appear sa stairs dapit. man! wa na pud! ni lupad na akong heart dala akong kalag! pero ni go lang mi... calm... and good thing! naa ang guard. ana ko kei nads na isumbong sa guard. abah.. dili jud ga huna2x si nads bei.. sa place pa jud na maka kita ang guy na nagsumbong siya didto nag isturya sa guard. Wa na jud nako na carry iyang level... basta ni gawas na jud ko sa movie house and went inside the C.R. and ambot unsa nay nahappen...


basta, ang main idea kei maski naa kay kauban mag watch ug movie, you still get into really scary situations, how much more if your alone? nah! wa jud! and errr... naa jud diay mga bastos na tao noh?!? gosh. grabeh ka blags akong pagtan-aw sa mga guys.. as in they can get so erotic to the extremities!!

then weird pa jud keow kei naa koy na kaabay na pud sa jeep na girl na murag ga hick-ups xa, na dili, na ambot. she moves her shoulder up and down every now and then like hick-ups pero ala man xa naghick-ups and then the movement was too exage for hick-ups. ambot! funny lang jud.


haaaaaayzzz.. the past days were really weird! ambot.. basta weird. i did so many things that were unusual of me. And the weird day happened twice consecutively... it's making me feel awkward. i'll tell you a lil secret... i read this really small booklet inside the xu museum with really small inscripture and just imagine how i painstakingly tried to read the letterings. it was like the one used during rituals or witchcraft things during the spanish colonial times and it sort of contained the idea that whomever reads this shall be warned three days before his death. ala lang... maybe these are signs. haha. awkey, me and my weird mind again. ay ambot uy! anyway, if it's true, i'll die this saturday... and if ever... don't forget "I LOVE YOU."

(i noticed some use "iloveyou" as another way of saying "goodbye". diba?)
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hate me. love me. this is me and you can't do anything more about it.I am rational and i know when to adapt change, influenced by my peers, society and self. i know myself. i know my limitations and capabilities. It may happen that at times I engage in things YOU might think I am incapable of, don't worry, I am only experimenting myself, widening my horizon, exploring more of what I can do. I accept, I am afriad of failure and I expect too much of myself. Yes, all heads on me, i fail. In fact, I am a failure in many things, and most of the time. Yet, I continue in order to pull myself out of average. I do not want to belong to the many who are unnoticed. I want to be heard. I want people to recognize me. Well, is it my fault that I have the heart that's valiant? NO! But then of course, I am risking myself with the possibility of embarassment, social disgrace and whatever "talk-abouts", I DON'T CARE! I will have to learn go through all these things in order to appreciate myself more, in order to achieve something great for which I can be proud of oneday. But yet I know when to stop dreaming and pursuing. I do not wish to step on someone, and never will I do it just for the sake of achieving, yet then again, hurting. I have a heart, a spirit and a soul that dreams so high and aspires for something great. I wont stop this passion for i believe this will bring me far, i will go far.

I dream big to set a standard for myself. I aspire so much to have an accurate calculation of what I can do and what I can't. And going through this self exploration, I often find myself crying because there is so little that I was able to do to what I could have done. Then again, lessons of self control, motivation, commitment and passion reach the tips of my fingers and run through my mind. It is at this moment that I quiet down, calm myself, and reflect on what I have achieved. Many times I have been fooled by my heart groaning for more. Yet, what can I do? I only have these and nothing more. But I do not end there. I go back to myself. Internalize the passion once more. Visualize my dreams again. And commit myself to a more sturdy covenant to act rigtly and accordingly inline to what I wish to become and where I dream to be.

There's so much more I can give, but because I am given little opportunity, I appear useless and among the average. But this time, things will become different. I will let myself be heard. I will master the art of speaking, writing, drawing, and creating if through these I become more of what I am now. I will engage myself with many activities concerning the society. I will venture into clubs, organizations and groups and encourage myself to actively participate. I want to make a difference. Now, it may not be possible but taking the step further, i will be one step closer to that difference i wish to make.
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watching and reading "THE LITTLE PRINCE" once more was so soothing to my soul. Though i may have read it several times but its as if every session brings in a better understanding, a deeper realization and a wider scope of knowledge of friendship, adulthood and of course, love. The movie was so cute! i like the kid who played the Little Prince's role. His image and cuteness reflected almost exactly what i imagined the prince would look like when i first read the book.


lessons in adulthood. When he was six, the author tried to draw a boa constrictor swallowing a whole elephant. (ever wonder why, snakes are known to swallow their prey as a whole with out cutting, breaking or chewing... directly swallowing which takes about 2-4 weeks of full digestion) it was of great dismay to him when he presented his drawing to the adults and on hearing then to say, "that's a hat!"
yes, adults no longer think the same way as kids do. Perhaps, going through all the stages of becoming a full adult, they have forgotten how it is like to be a kid. Matters of consequences, fame, glory, social competition... these are things they have clogged their minds about. For them, these things are that which matters most. Not a flower, not a drawing, not a tear, not a friend, not something that enriches one's heart and soul.

This idea scares me so much. One day, i will have to grow up. One day, matters of consequences will become essential to me. One day, I will prefer social competition over friendship... that would be sad. I will no longer enjoy stealling few moments of my time spending it watching the beautiful sunset but would favor witnessing such picturesque scene over a tv set where I would just lean on my chair after a heavy day of work. I wish not to become an adult. Physically, i may not control it, but i will really try my best to stay as a kid, as long as i can. In fact, I envy becoming an adult. There are so many things I have to give up. One example is playing----sports. I no longer have time to play my favorite sports. Academic demands, social responsibilities, I have busied myself with these! But though at times when i do have time, no one wants to play with me. They have also busied themselves with matters of consequences! and because i am a girl, its so rare to find someone like me to play with. Girls at my age don't play catch anymore, they don't play tag, they don't play basketball nor tennis nor badminton... They play with their hearts and I don't.


*more reflections soon*

grrr... busy..
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This will be one heck of a post. nyaha! (i hope). december has bid it's tempory goodbye but permanently for the year 2006. now, we all face the first month of the year---january. but before any activity yet, let me cram on the things i should be posting here... and now, to make such effort, i really photoshoped and edited all these pix and to think, i have an up coming exam tomorrow! eeeeeekk!! (sheesh, i try not to care yet. i'll cram later on. hehe) i will mention 2 high lights during my break.

so here it is.. the first 3 collage you see here are pictures from the birthday bash my sister had last Dec.23, 2006 at Kagay.anon. She was disappointed actually for she reserved good enough for 60 people, which she thought would mostly be compromised of her friends in high school, yet only about 1/4 of the entire number of people were her HS friends and the rest were our cousins and some folks. A dismay that was for her and her friends who expected a somewhat 'reunion'... it was her birthday and she was yet eager to see them the moment she came back here, but sadly only some responded to her call. anyway, i was happy to hear someone who actually travelled from bukidnon just to attend her party! talking about sacrifice and enthusiam! She wanted people to wear semi-formal attires and that includes me! later on, you'll see how short my mini-dress is. rrrr... (she COMMANDED ME TO WEAR IT, OK?) Awh yeah! ever since she came back, my gosh! our camera, as well as her's, never had a day when it was not used. Everyday, when we travel, "mel! picture!" "Mel! take some pix!" "picture tah!" my gosh! gi kapoy jud ko ug sige sunod2x sa iya para lang magpicture!

and then she would respond either, "dah! gwapa kei ko!" or "yay! gwapaha au uy!" or "ay! i.erase na! pangit ko diha" nyaha!!!^^ sometimes being over too confident could lead to being concieted. ^^ plus, she is definitely a shopping addict! i swear to GOD! everyday, as in EVERYDAY, she goes out of the house either to shop or to go out with her friends, but mostly, TO SHOP! SM and Ketkai is her all time favorite. she even onced said, "mas chada diri sa pilipinas kei dili na ka mag-tan.aw sa price tag" and man! dili sab mabang2x iyang mga fave botiques woi! ma shock na lang mi na daghan na keow dayon xag handbag pag-uli. (sometimes, her shopping is just too much for us to handle that we just drop her to SM or Ketkai and then let her take the cab to go home.^^)

anyway, back to the party.. yeah, it was cool! i like the food there. lami xa. That was also the time that i saw my ever dearest cousins wear some formal, really lady/gentleman looking outfits. I swear, we were HOT! SSSssss... :P They displayed elegance and finese and i just couldn't resist but to take pictures!!!

haha! oh yeah.. maybe my picturitious sistah has passed-on her picture virus on me. nyaha! since she and i had separate cameras, i had my own world of taking pictures and she also had her own. and of course, my subjects were my cousins. picture here, picture there, and picture everywhere! (even in Rest Rooms. haha!) and sometimes, they take the cam and picture themselves, like the first one on your left.^^ by the way, that's coz talok or Lj. i just love the guy.. he's so fun to be with.. it's never boring when he's around. he could crack out jokes even if he's down! and beside him is coz' eric... he studies in Cebu and i miss him now. it's been so long since i last saw him. and oh! oh! did i say we were complete?? yeah! Ohana barkada was complete! Vanessa, Victoria, Lj, Eric, Timothy and me! ^^ my sistah's birthday also served as a reunion for us. eeeekkkk! and i love it! then of course, WE WERE ALREADY OLD ENOUGH TO BE ALLOWED TO GO ON SOME NIGHT OUTS... and oh yes, we did! haha! i could remember my cousin Victoria said, "old na jud ta bah kei gi na allow na man ta maglaag sa gabii." haha! it's nice to be old sometimes. eeekkkk! it was funny coz we acted as if we were really adults, we had a coffee treat at Park Cafe for a couple of hours and went on to another place for another Gimik. and it ended (like i mentioned in the previous post) with me sleeping at 12 noon. zzz...

Another significant even that happened was the OGILVIE GET TOGETHER!!! the first plan initially was a bongacious get together like having to held it in a resort with all the swimming2x in basamangas and all. (nice tana toh na) but since the call for a get together was so soon that people weren't able to prepare well (and ask permission), we all decided to have a little get together instead. The ever famous food sponsor of Ogilvie---McDonalds was our meeting place. We agreed that we will all have lunch there and just talk, and talk, and picture, and some more pictures, and talk and eat! ^^ awh... picture2x is really a bonding aid. haha! watebur! awwhhh... i so miss them na. i so miss sitting with them, eating with them, talking to them, and bond with them! (sadly, no only jomi represented the ADMU pipz) then after eating, we all went on to watch a movie. KASAL, KASALI, KASALO. i swear! it was really hilarious and true! it's like, the story could really come to reality! it's nice to enjoy filipino movies. It just goes to show that the Philippine Cinema is still rearing it's gears to stardom. haha! ^^ but before watching the movie, we still had to convince and "pa conscienxa" the gentlemen to join and watch the movie together. The ever famous line, "sometimes na lang gani tah mag-inani, dili pa jud mo mu-participate. maglahi pa jud." haha! and the instant, they decided to join! ^^ plus! plus! Ms.A and Ken were there! weeee! a reunion, indeed that was! then of course, picture here and picture there again... so nice coz people were game to pose even if some others were staring at us! haha! then after the movie, some people already left, especially the boys! but kating, ed, cat, gel, lao and moi stayed to have some chit chat in jollibee. we all ordered large french fries and mereged them all. but before we did, each of us said out loud our wishes for 2006... so it was like wishing on a french fries. and my wish is.... *secret* :P then, the sad part, we had to say buh-bye and ol. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. :'(

and talking about being sad... grrr.... the break is the worse xmas break i had, ever! plus i welcomed my new year in a hospital. ghad! of all places, I HATE HOSPITALS! though i am a nurse.. grrrr....

but all in all, it was nice! it was more or less a moment to bond with some really good friends, and a sistah. =)

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