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Ranting before Class starts!

08 June, 2008

Blah,,, blah... blah.. and so let me talk.

One day more and school's gonna be back. My, oh my... back to those late-bed-time nights and spend time with books rather than computer, tv, or friends. So nerdish! Well what can I do? studying nursing stuffs is not at all easy you know, and let me repeat that, IT'S NOT AT ALL EASY YOU KNOW!



Just this very moment, I feel really scared, wondering might happen to me this coming semester. Will it be easy or will it be hard? If it be hard, will I surpass such hardship? Will I make it? uwaaah. I don't know. Am scared! But right now, I am still considering all the stories I heard from the higher years as a challenge on my part and I always put this thought in my mind, "if they made it, why can't I?" Why can't I, right? I can do this! (go mel! cheer yourself! haha)



Perhaps I would not put so much attention the pressure my parents are putting on to me. It will just stress me all the more! I would want to focus my attention on the kind of work I have... the service I shall be giving to people, the opportunity to render care. (naks!) But seriously, if not for this very reason, I would have loooong been gone from the college of nursing. Somehow, the very thought of being a health care persona inspires me to continue on with this heavy endeavor. Yikes! Well, all I really want in life is to help... And this undertaking somehow guides me to that.



But still, I cannot deny the fact that I am a bit forced of taking up nursing, and I am really scared of the subjects I will be taking and the grades I shall be receiving on those. I kinda have this phobia, fear of getting low grades... and honestly, I do not know how to handle such situations because as what I have noticed, I would fall completely silent for the entire day and suddenly become emotional when I know I got a low rank. (and as if I really study a lot!) It's like I experience this sudden shift of emotion when dealing with grades. gaaah.. perhaps I've been influenced so much of the pressure my parents are constantly putting on me plus ALL OTHER FACTORS INCLUDED. If only life was easier...



uhm, how do I get rid of this scared feeling?


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