i've been trying to enter something here for 3 attempts already! sheeesh! talking about interruptions. oh well...

my christmas was not something i expected it to be. i dreamt of having a fun-filled, full of gifts, lots of get-together moments, but no, it was way different from what i expected. tisk. yeah, there were lots of parties i attended but it wasn't with friends (especially with those who came back), but with family. well yeah, i love to be with my cousins, i miss their company too you know. Just to prove it, i went with them to park cafe ,one night (after the party at kagay.anon), with my ever daring costume. ugh! it was awkward walking in dvsoria weary almost nothing! kidding. :P of course i was wearing something, but it was really too skimpy and man! it was 10 o'clock in the evening! but i was confident enough coz i know my three other boy gentlemen cousins are there to kick someone's butt if they dare to make fun of me! (bleh!) and yeah.. after some talk, we went to a kareoke bar at carmen at stayed there till 3 am! then went to my cousin's place. (actually, we planned to attend the mass at xu after we freshen up but due to uncontrolable circumstances, we didn't) reaching their place, we eyed on their tv screen watching movies till we all fell asleep (though we agreed we wont sleep). heck, we slept for about an hour only since my cousin and i were in a hurry to go home. (i did not ask permission. :P)

then when i reached home, my sister was bugging me to upload the pictures in the computer and in her friendster account. and there were a lot of pictures! sheeesh! it was only about 12 noon when i finally layed my heavy booody on the bed, turned on the aircon, and flew myself to dreamland. zzzzzz.... then woke up at around 6 pm. ^^

dec.25----had a renion. it was fun, yeah... but it was sad since someone was missing. there's was even one who was in the middle of a family crisis. (talking about having a family! headache!! ^^)


i wanted to write something sensible here. something i will love to read again and again. the reason why i created this blog is to enhance my writing skills (as if i have!) and my vocabulary. aside from being an emotional trash. unfortunately, this has never served its purpose. i still have my old style of writing and i can't even create a sensible short story! my life long dream is to write something and be published on a national newspaper. I also wish to create an inpirational book. but how can i do these if my course does not specialize in english writing skills? plus, even though i try, i don't think i have ever improved! or that my works would be as enthusiastic and well organized as others! oh my... i wish my dreams will come true. i dread i did not join the student publication org during my high school years. (hmmm.. come to think about it, perhaps it was just safe not to join especially when that ISSUE emerged. :P) i could have had something to be proud of. and maybe brag to myself that i am really ABLE to write something sensible. eeeeekk!! and lately i noticed, i may not be good at feature writing but i am good at writing letters to people. even getting into the eeeky, gooewey, yucky level! haha. i reread my draft of the letters/palancas i gave to people. it was really eeeewww!!! :P hmmm... if only i'm a writer. i may not be, but i will continue to dream...
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i was shocked to see ladybug's comment! shhheeeessh! i thought i saved this as a draft! my gosh. that's why i only posted a few pix. anyway, here's pretty much a summary of the picture galore moments. hehe. see for yourself!

for the past days, my two sisters and i were having a funfilled picture bonding activity! picture2x everywhere, as in EVERYWHERE! even after mass at XU. shhheeessh! but i didn't join them. of couse! it was too embarracing... and to think one of my teachers saw me! aaaaaahhhh!!! shame! shame! shame! but i won't be ashamed displaying our pictures here. hehe! take a look. see our facial similarities and differences. hehe!

Tres Marias

(ate karren, ate merry ann and moi)

and oh.. that anonymous person. i can't really stop thinking about you! not because you're significant or what, but your simply pissing me off! sheeeessh! what have you got to hide anyway, huh? coward..

if you want to read my reply (which i think you have read and just neglected), click on the right post found in the archives.

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im sick. severely sick. grrrr... my cough condition has gone extremly out of control! i can't raise my left hand. im like half-paralized! connect? well my pectoralis major (that's the muscle on your chest) is aching everytime i excert force on my left hand. that is when i stand up from bed, i have to push myself using my right arm. I can't elevate my left hand more than 45 degrees from rest, i can't carry heavy objects using my left arm, i can't sleep leaning on my left; it's either right or flat--facing upward. and if i violate these, im in a state of sudden shock of pain. like having heart-attack. it's like pricking your heart with an arrow, not a needle, an ARROW! so painful! it's also as if my heart is in freeze mode. if i inhale so much air, my muscle hurts, and if i don't inhale air, i will die! aaaahhhh!! i told my friend, cese, that i have been having bad dreams lately. Once i dreamt, i was shot accidentally, and another time i was shot intentionally and both dreams i was shot at almost the same part of my body---near my shoulder. Cese then made her analysis that maybe i have a problem with my heart. She's right, i do have but i am not really certain what it is since i haven't gone through a general check or the like but for the past years, i've been experiencing chest pains and sudden constriction of my heart muscles or muscles ner the heart. anyway, my sister told me to do the "deep breathing" that is inhaling from the nose and breathing out through the mouth. haaaayzz.. i hope i won't be absent tomorrow. i don't want to miss my MW schedz, these are my heavy days and i just can't miss a subject coz it's prelims!

pray for my successful recuperation please... i need it badly.

to anonymous: why aren't you replying anymore? im waiting still...
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