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Welcome back and Good-bye

10 November, 2008

This week's been a hell of a ride. I've been to soooooo much already. May it be academics, co-curricular and generally life itself. Gosh, it seems at this point, everything is on a fast pace. I have to rush everyday to finish requirements in school, prepare for a long test or quiz, comply to some readings, prepare for a return demonstration and pack up for Davao!!
This saturday, after our long test, we will be leaving to Davao for our psych affiliation. I've been there already... (as you may see, I made this one and a half year ago) so it doesn't make me excited or what. I am actually worried. Many say their average sleep there is just about 3 hours. 3 hours?? how on earth would I be able to survive such? I am a sleepy head you know. Sleeping is one thing I would not give-up. How much more to endure through it for 2 weeks? gosh. Anyway, I am very much eager to see and hear the stories of the patient there. I would want to be assigned to a patient whose life story would really let me fall into my knees and weep. (haha. Over) But seriously, they say after the orientation part where all the fears just suddenly come gushing, the empathy towards them would slowly fill in. I would love to experience that. That's why I am thinking of really documenting my experience their. Like, make a journal or something. I'm still thinking. :)

Anyway, as always I am not happy with my life again. Errrr... I just can't get this bug between me and my family fixed! Just yesterday and the other night, I cried myself to sleep hearing my mother again talking about how "unlucky" she is to have me as her daughter. It's like she's cursing me I lived. God knows how much I really want to die peacefully. Haaayzzz.. if suicide isn't just a sin, I would have long died. (ooopppss) But I think I have out grown that thought for now. It may be a sweet escape, but I still have dreams to achieve and lives to save. :)

Even if my family thinks I am a jerk and the whole of me is evil, I still believe that there's still an element of goodness in me. :)

bye for now! off to Davao!

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