I had my hair trimmed this after. neat! haha. ^_^ well, I've had long hair ever since 4th year. It was because during last months of second year life, I cut it really short. As in boy look-a-like. (ghad! what came into my freak mind that time that I cut it really short? well, freaky) Hmmm.. maybe it was because it became very frizzy and dry when I had my first hair treatment. I wasn't able to maintain it. Like every month, hot oil. Then re-relax and all. So there, I decided to cut the whole part of my hair that became frizzy and dry and grow a new one. Yet, I totally looked embarassing! short hairs are not for me! ( super eeewwww! :P) So I complemeted to what happened to my hair and decided to grow my hair really long. As in really, really long. The longest hair I would ever have! And I did! haha. It was really long. I did not cut it for 2 years. And it reached my waist line by summer of 4th year life. But then, I decided to go on a hair treatment again. And then, wasn't able to maintain it. So my hair once again is frizzy and dry. (ugh) BUT, but, but, I will never cut it as short as before. Pramis! I kinda look better with a long hair so, buh-bye short hair and hello long hair! Even though my hair is kinda unhealthy, I would still keep it hanging long. Pero kanina, my mom just told me that I will have my hair trimmed. sshhheeessh! I was shocked. (uy! friends kami ni mama today. We did not fight and our conversations lasted more than 15 mins. sweet! ^_^) I was thinking not to cut it this week since I would be attending 2 debuts and I want to have a curly style on both events. The curls will have a beautiful effect if one has a long hair. I wanted to cut my hair pang shoulder level, but only after the debuts. But since, I was so tempted by my mother's offer (She offers once in a blue moon!), I trimmed my hair and instructed the parlorista to cut it only about 2 inches. But as what I can see, he cut it more than 2 inches almost reaching my shoulder! (huhu. my hair. my long frizzy hair.) *sigh* but it's awkey.. hairs will grow anyway. so here's my photo. The long hair before and the short hair now. :)

and oh! oh! aside from the hair-cut offer, my mom told me that I should get my toes treated. The pedicure thing. (is that how you call it?) So I did not hesitate. I seized the moment instantly! haha. (gosh, what has really got in to the mind of my mother?? she's really in a good mood! haha) But mind you, it was painful!!! The manicurista was pushing her pusher too hard! (yawch!!) I just endured the pain. excruciating pain! really ouch.

But you know what? I was kinda hesitant to put my foot right before the person for her to work on. I mean, I felt ashamed to have asked someone older than me, sit a few inches lower, and touch my dirty, eewww feet, and just sit there and wait for my toes to be colored and cleaned. But I just couldn't stand and tell my mom, "ma, dili nako kaya makita mag-in.ana xa." That would be DUH! So instead, I shifted my mind to other stuffs. (like, my short hair. :c) Hmmmm... I would rather do the JOB. But then I thought, if I wont let her do it, she won't earn from the money my mom will pay. Uuuughhhh... me and my weird feelings again. haaaayyyyzzz... kasi naman, bakit pa kailanganng magsunog ng kilay para lamang mabuhay. Unfair nga naman talaga ang world noh. *sigh*

And, out of boredom, I created this. It's not one of my best works. I really don't know how to design things with an instant. I need to have time and have to plan out the design to come up with something that's nice and good. I just made the design the moment I opened photoshop CS and touched the mouse. My main theme here is summer. So I just crammed all the thoughts that would pop out of my head. The back drop is a scene taken last summer in Cebu. SUMMER NA!!! TARA NAH! SWIMMING TAYO! ^_^ (I had a quick dip when our block went to mangima. bleh! :P)







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haaaaaayyzzz!!! finally, school is in hault. yes, in hault coz we have summer class. (sigh) errr.. i think we're the only college having summer class as a regular schedule. (masterals is an exemption) tisk. nursing is heavy. really heavy. so many units!!! right now,
i'm thinking about shifting. Shift to a course where my heart could freely speak, my spirtit could freely leap. I'm tired of weaving my own dreams for someone else to appreciate. I may be able to weave that dream nicely but I wouldn't be proud to accept it as my work. I want to follow the voice that calls with in. Dance to the silent song it sings. I hope to find my place... that oneday too, I will believe that all things have their place. When one's heart is captured by something (or someone), it will be quite hard to accept something new. And it is at these moments that I struggle to accept things not because I want to. But because I have to, for the sake of not disrespecting the ones for whom I continue to weave "that dream."



Well anyway, Block NB (our block) had an outing last march 21-22, 2007. It was an over night event held at cawayanon and mangima. It was fun, yeah. But not really the best outing. In fact, I may not remember the activities we had 10 years from now. I did enjoy a little. Especially during the amazing race. But over all, I find it rather not fun.


After what happened weeks before, I decided not to join. But then, I told myself I would be very selfish if I don't give it a try to extend my arms and reopen it once again. I convinced myself to erase in my mind whatever happened and start a new beginning. I told HIM I will give it a shot. But I just coudn't do it. I don't know but I just can't. I gave it a try, but I failed. Maybe because there are a few of them who made me feel uncomfortable, awkward and misplaced. I feel their doubts, their "i don't like her" hidden manners, their spying eyes, their pretentious games, their fake smiles, their "napipilitan" gestures, their "as if" unaware yet intentionally unaware. I see it all, but I pretend not to feel it. It's my way of easing the "pressure". Well, I guess I just have to live my life. Go on, move on, LIVE!

Since the break, all I did were surf the net, watch tv/dvd, edit photos, make videos for debuts, chat. Hmmmm... quite a long list. :P plus, include there, reading since next next week I will make a little sacrifice for the lent-----no computer (ghad! i could spend 7 hours straight!). So, the lingaw would be cut off since most of the activities are computer related. eeeekk!! (i hope i make it)

I want to post something sensible soon. And I decided to make my blog more presentable and ncie. Uhm, perhaps in every post, there will be a photo or photos. Then, I will change my template. (ugh, this one's getting old) and hmmm... ambot. sense less post. :D






(if you happen to read this and you are one of my blockmates, I am sorry but I own this blog. I have the right to express my thoughts, feelings and emotions here. I do not intend to hurt you or create another issue. I have become such an issue and you are all an issue in my life. I just want to express what I hide from all of you. You think I don't notice it? I do. And I do get hurt that's why you often find me silent, sitting at one corner coz' I choose to silence myself rather than wear a mask and present myself before all of you. But don't worry, I do not inted to address this to all of you. I have some good friends in our block. I just would want to target some. Just some)
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this is our Egyptian dance performance during the PE night. We won! weeee!! :P

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but. there's always a but in every situation. I've become too neglective of my blockmates. I don't understand why I can't seem to blend with the world of my blockmates. They are just entirely different bunch of people. GAAAHHH!!! I could identify one reason. Their always (and i think forever) topic of the day is LOVE. Love, the eros love. errrr.. it's alright to talk about love (i don't even think it's love, crush is much more appropriate to use) once in a while, ONCE IN A WHILE. But talking about it every now and then... ghad, IT ANNOYS ME! I accept, I am not entirely into falling in love or crushes for that matter. I prefer dealing with "some other important matters." But this whole "love/crush gap" thing between us separates me from them, excludes me from the group. I can't relate with them, that's true. But I don't have any plans to relate with them either. I don't want to change my ways just to cope up . I don't want to appear foolish pretending that I belong to the group. I don't want to wear a mask when I am with them. I don't enjoy their company, and they don't enjoy mine. I think it's just fair. I've grown tired and frustrated of trying... and it's final, I accept it, I am different.

But this difference is what links me to my friends. They are much more important to me than some other group whom I try to fit in. But it's ok. I'm OK with it.

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