I don't know if this feeling right now is rightful to be recognized. It seems like I am losing my loyalty to one of my loved organization (in this case, my ONLY org for college life.)

I feel like slowly I am losing my work THERE. As in slowly (and perhaps silently!) they are covering anything that I could do for the office in behalf of another person. It's like undressing me of my responsibilities in the office. I don't know if this unusual feeling I have is true (I hope it's not), but I am really not liking what I am discovering lately. It even makes this suspicion more severe as I deal with those "cover-up" persons almost all the days of my school life. errrr....

I just don't like it when people could not courageously say what they have to say. I don't have problems if they don't want me to do the things I was suppose to do, they can freely tell me that this person is much better with this and that, and that he/she performs more effectively... blah. blah. blah. It's better to be cruely honest than be silent liers!

I could not confine this anger right now since I have been loyal to my organization and discovering such fraud and injustice (for which this office has been built to fight against) is just too much of what I can imagine... never thought they could have the guts to do this. I am very much mad right now and currently I am thinking of quiting... or maybe not. I'll wait for that ultimate signal then I will have no second thoughts of leaving.

I surely hope I am entirely wrong!

state: really smokin' mad!
Blogged @ 7:31 PM
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I've been very busy lately, complying to all the requirements for duty and exams and long tests here and there. @_@ I'm gonna get crazy if this madness runs for more after the semi-final exams.

Speaking of which, I should be studyin right now for our RLE exam tomorrow but hey, what am I doing? surfing the net as if there is no exam. haha. (Forgive me, I'm so fed up reading stuffs. I think I'm gonna puke and I still have 3 more chapters to read. ugh) I really have to go good this time. It's the only term I can pull myself up since there will only be a few topics as compared to the finals where in it's COMPREHENSIVE! gosh... all the concepts? gosh.

About my nursing life, I am enjoying it more often than before. This week, I was assigned to 3 young babies who were undeniably cute! The first one was a girl and the next was that oh so cute foreigner-like-but-no-foreign blood baby boy. But my last patient was a bit grumpy due to some dehydration status. But nonetheless, I was still able to make him smile by the end of my shift. Gosh, I just love my assigned patients for this rotation. They were all so very cute!!! eeeekkk!! I just love children. :)

Here's a photo during out last rotation for Oro Doctors Hospital. We look so happy and cute and nur-es looking. hahaha. XD


I have so many things to do but I also have so many thing I WANT to do. ugh. Haaayzzz.. time, if only you can be bought. I would trade an amount for some spare time. geesssh.

Pls help me pray to do good in all my exams. I really need to do good this time... No more extra time to pull myself up.
Tisk.

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On the other hand, My barkada and I have not been together for long now and I really do miss them so much. It's like we are all busy with our own endeavors in life. Hmph! hopefully no secrets are being kept from each other... hehehe. :D

And I also miss my kkp fwends so much! I miss those kwek2x nights, siomai nights, late night laags to the apartment of kuya donot, late night movies, eat out somewhere cheap and those long but rather short chikka moments when we just burst out into laughters over little corney jokes or stuffs. :) haaaayzzz... I miss them all.

Lately, I've been really having bad days. Bad days in a sense that I just feel like something is missing and I don't know what. Maybe because I miss the company of my friends. I've been spending most of my laag nights with my bestfriend. Not that it's bad but I just miss the times when almost all of my kkp friends spend time together. I could attest to the statement, the more the merrier. :)

until the next update. :)

I'm planning to do a photoshop edit by my next post. I soo miss photoshop and blogging.

ciao!
Blogged @ 3:32 PM
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