Something I turned out to be
17 April, 2010
This is by far the worst thing that I did in my life. :c
How could I be so irrational, how could I be so dumbed to have allowed this event to happen? I have controlled myself very well for the past events and how could I have slipped with just a little instance? I feel like a freak, a beast for what has happened. I never imagined myself doing the act, never in my wildest dreams, but I did. :c
how could you? I trusted you, I gave you my trust. I gave you my respect and I gave you things I never imagined I could give to someone. How could you have taken all these gifts for granted? How?! You opened my life in this kind of possibility and I embraced it with respect. I granted your wishes and sometimes fantasy coz you mattered to me. But then again, you abused it. You took so much and left me nothing, you abused my generosity and here we are crying over our actions. I don't deserve this. I don't really think I do. I have told you over and over again and I warned you what might come our way... but you never listened. You let my words slip your mind and become so selfish to entertain you thoughts and interest instead.
I hate you. I hate myself too. I hate ourselves for what we have done... I hate what's going on in my mind. I hate the totality of it.
To my dismay, you are just like all others of your kind. You are Sin and I'm a sinner too. T_T
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@ 1:10 PM
Don't let me go -
