yeah.. perhaps everything now seems to be too complicated for me to comprehend, understand, and convey..

i don't know, but the reaction and behavior of the people around me (even those who aren't) is soo arduous.. can't get the thing they want!!! ok im talking nonsense here..

first, i want to castigate those who are smart but seem to get not enough:

over the years, i have been with "intelligent" people (especially in xuhs) and i have seen them tower over every single activity they endulge themselves with. first, champion, the best...(the list goes on) these seem to be the only rankings they know in a competition and the rest, second, third, runner-up (the list goes on too) are a rather obvious distinction of "have lost it". i know, it's magis... or it's the ignatian signature or whatever, that we ( i am including myself) are trained for. But it just aggravates me to hear brilliant people complaining over the little mistake or short comings they have brought themselves in. It's appears so ironic on me... they should be, atmost, proud of themselves... one stupid mistake shouldn't ruin everything. it's not as if life consists of dominos. and what's wrong with being the second?... many have tried to reach the top.. don't you think the place is too crammed already? and hey, it's not what you are... it's who you are...

second, those who make themselves important:

these kind of people are the most that stir my mind so much! yes, i undertand that every single being needs to be loved, cared or what, pampered? so it is, but they don't have to make themselves appear so important that they allege themselves, they lack love, care and comfort.. ugh! There are many who never felt they were loved, cared and pampered and have rot themselves 6 feet under! The least these egocentric people could ask is JUST ENOUGH... and whatever excess they've received, they must SHARE IT WITH OTHERS. There are those who needs their arrogant and greedy call for such much more, and they are the ones deserving to call, "i am important." they have, atleast, the right to feel important even for JUST ONCE.


and personal call:

so much things i have come to think over the break. and if the break goes on.. i might end up crazy. Deep thinking...ugh! comes with a deepening realization. and every single realization brings me to a more perplexed state. i wonder, i ask y... but there's no one to answer my cry for reasons.. tisk. im glad the break is about to end... not many thoughts (from out of the blue) now can enter my mind. I will be busy.. yes, i would love that.

"the way to calm yourself over one thougt is to think of another" (i just made this up.hehe)

but perhaps the next thought should be atleast less complicated. hehe.

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still not done reading. ugh! procastination!!! ^_^
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