06 May, 2006

done with the spin----> =)i'm now done with the new layout..weee!!!! so like it... hmmmmnnn.... it's already 9:46 here and still, im not home pa.. i 'm kinda nagrebelde..hehe.. i want to go home late.. as in supper late.. shux! had a major war with my mom.. i soooo hate her... tsk.. i somehow wish i can choose my pair of "parents"... argh! i just really hate our home... when ever i'm there... i just can't take the agony.. the mere fact that i am living with people i'm not even sure if i love, pains me so much.. i don't know either if they love me too... lucky for you.. i am able to show you how much you mean to my life.. i can say i love you.. but to my family?... what the heck! NEVER DID! i want to..but such unknown forces and unreasonable excuses just really drowns me to hell... i am not happy here... i am happy when i am with you guys... one day.. i really wish... i'll just be gone and live my life on my own.. i don't want to be dependent on them anymore.. I AM TIRED OF IT! tired of the many "must do" and " must not do" because im still beneath their flapping wings... i know sometimes we have to.. but in my own point of view... they do not understand what i want to do.. THEY DON'T KNOW ME! that is... how i wish they do... someday..i hope they'll do.. =(
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